Life has taken a full circle. I am back to the point where I started a few years back . Its strange how we never realise the value of a person when we have them and suddenly the world seems to have come to an end when that person's no more yours. I think its mainly our insecurities that keep us away from hapiness. Its the fear of being rejected, the fear of pain, the fear on longing, the fear of not being accepted that keeps us from asking that one question to the person we love. Love is a test. You have to be a strong person to ever get love in your life.A weak person always remains without love. Situations, circumstances cloud your decision making power. A strong mind steer clears all this clutter. Its so important to be firm , to be assertive, to not let go of your love. To have the strength to fight whatever comes your way. These are realisations that come to me really late in life when I do feel I gave up really fast. God did give me a second chance but I did not realise even then. I let past my love thinking i'd already forgotten him but here it still haunts me when he's already committed to someone else now. Its such a strong connection i cant seem to get over. Its the purest form of feeling and yes I know its pure. I just want to tell people when love knocks your door please open it, dont let it go. I guess i'm so lonely because I did not let anyone come close to me. I was always scared the minute a person knew me better he would leave me. I wish I had not thought like that. I wish I was the way I am right now 3 years back. Things would have been different. I would be happy right now, with him, in his arms. Him making fun of me, teasing, calling me silly, taking care of me, passing his jacket when its cold, showing little gestures of love and care, playing the best romantic music,I would have been a different person. Like I said I felt more stable when i was with him. his maturity complemented my stupidity.That's why the title - sometimes realisations are the wisdoms that make you look foolish.
